The ramblings continue, forever on and on...

Egads! Am I ever sore! These workouts are definitely hard core. I did lose 1.5 lbs from yesterday to today though, so it seems to be paying off. It probably isn't so honorable of me, but I was pleased with myself that I out-performed my husband during the Ab Ripper X workout. I am very very sore today, and I am really looking forward to the Yoga X tomorrow. At least that will be mostly stretching and flexibility (do I ever need to work on my flexibility!!). Today's workout was the Shoulders and Arms, and it was just curls and weight training. The Plyometrics workout was more difficult than this one was. My legs are still sore from all those "jump squats" yesterday.

I got my review of SaSi up! I actually found it to be kinda difficult to write. There is just so much to say about the SaSi! Plus I wrote it late at night, and was a little worried my brain was fried from being tired. It seems to have turned out okay though. No "wow what a crappy review" comments as of yet ;) Actually, the people in the review community on Eden all are quite tactful and nice.

I find myself wondering about the affiliate program. Of all the coupons I have given out, nobody has used my partner code to make a purchase yet! I was pretty surprised actually because a couple people seemed really excited about the 15% discount. The only one who uses my partner code seems to be me, sad as that is. Oh well, at least I'm getting the 15% discount. I've wondered if people have an aversion to using it because of the other person getting a 5% commission. I would think that since they were saving 15% they wouldn't care at all if the other person was making 5% off of the sale. Maybe I just need to make more friends ;)

If you do a search in Google for edenfantasy coupons, you will most likely find tons of people's partner codes. I don't advertise mine this way, although maybe I should think about it. My husband thinks I should be able to use my own partner code, but I don't understand why not. During the order process it does say "Enter your Coupon or Partner Code." Besides, I review every single product I buy from them. The commission I make, will just go back into buying another toy once I get enough to redeem.

Anyways, I am starting to zone out really bad. Guess that means it's time to do something else. Maybe I'll go soak my sore body in the tub for a couple hours until I turn into a prune ;)

Anxiously waiting for the mail man.

The mail should be here in a couple hours. Even knowing the mail never comes this early, I am still looking out the window every 5 minutes. I know Eden put the expected delivery date as tomorrow, but I always get packages a day early. I checked the tracking on the package and it showed in left it's last stop yesterday morning, and that city is about 200 miles from here. I am pretty sure it will come today, and I am having a hard time remaining calm.

I ordered a group of lubes on Tuesday. Oddly enough they still haven't shipped out yet. I should have selected the USPS priority shipping instead of the DHL 2nd day. I was hoping I'd get the package in time for the weekend (like the freakin' guarantee claims) but the expected arrival date isn't until next Tuesday. Thank goodness I added some lube to the SaSi order. This does mean though that I will have to use my Maximus sparingly until next week :( I'll write a follow up for it after I've tried my other lubes and once the bottle is completely empty.

On a different note, I am sore from yesterday. It really didn't hit me until noon rolled around. Yesterday's workout was pretty intense, but I was only able to get through half of the Plyometrics (jump training) this morning. The workout was 60 minutes long, so I still got in about 35 minutes of intense exercise. I thought I'd better slow down before my heart burst. From yesterday I am avoiding lifting my arms above my head very often, and from today's workout I am avoiding the stairs. lol Pretty soon I'll be able to do nothing but type or crochet.

I actually haven't mentioned before that I crochet and knit. It seems to be good for keeping my hand busy (so they can't stuff my face) and helps me relax. I have made more than one afghan out of anger, ha! I have been pretty down these past few months with all the stress and just being kinda blue in general. I had gotten away from my crafty hobbies after finishing my last afghan when the weather started to turn warmer. It has been cooling down enough this past week that I can actually stand to work on a blanket again. I had wanted to try this pattern for awhile since it was on the skein of yarn I'd gotten for the previous project. This one is supposed to be "intermediate" level, but the only thing sort of challenging about it is the crappy instructions. I had to experiment on my own to get the stitches to look like the ones in the picture. I've got the hang of it now though, and since the pattern just repeats the same 12 rows, I no longer need to work from the pattern. I will refer back to it once I am on the last row, just in case.

I was really hoping the mail man would come while I was typing this up, but he still isn't even on the block yet :( Bleh...I need to find something to do to pass the time. Too bad since the new hard drive got installed I will need to install all the Sims 2 on it. Hubby did save my save files though, so that will be nice. It just takes so freakin' long to install all the expansions and the stuff packs. I am not that zealous about getting them put on even. Hubby can't get the sound card to work, so we will probably have to end up buying a new one of those too :( For some stupid reason he can't get the drivers to load. I never noticed the sound so much, but not having any sound on the computer really blows. I was going to watch a video review for the Tales of Vesperia video game, but it's pretty impossible without being able to hear what the guy is saying. I could have always read the written review, but I was lazy and decided against it. Hubby said he saw a video card at evil-mart (yes, I hate wal mart and its always busy, always crowed aisles and checkout lanes that take over 30 minutes to get through). He said it was about $25. I would rant about how much I hate how crowded wal-mart is, but I'll leave that for a time when I'm really pissed because I've just been there and got ran over by a cart driven by a grandma. It's been about 3 weeks since I've been there. When we went shopping for school clothes for the "big girl" we went to Target, Kmart, and ShopKo but not to walmart. We got her a whole new wardrobe (including hair items and 3 pairs of shoes) for about $200. There were several shirts that were on clearance for between $3 and $5. Anyways, I really got off track there!

I see the mail man just drove up and parked on the block. If the SaSi order came, then I'll probably post that I got it later. Otherwise, I'll just post tomorrow.

Working my butt off...hopefully :)

So I just started the Alli Diet two weeks ago, I've been doing Pilates, and I've lost 7 pounds. Great progress...only it's not good enough. I feel week, I still don't have any energy, and my freakin' joints hurt! I don't just want to lose weight; I want to feel strong and healthy too.

My husband won't do the Pilates with me, so I dug the P90X stuff out of the storage room. My husband had bought this workout program over a year ago. He got into the second week and kinda just dropped out of it due to excess stress at work. We are both doing it this time. We are using the bands instead of weights or chin up bars at this point. I need to buy a new band though. I got a "light" resistance band that is supposed to be good for beginners and moderately active people. It felt like there was almost no resistance at all! I am not strong by any means, so this kind of surprised me.

This morning we did the first work out, after the oldest girl got on the bus to head to Pre-School. The one for today was the chest and back workout. What it is, is basically a routine of different pull ups and push ups. There are twelve exercises (and yes, they are all variations of pull ups and push ups (military push ups, decline push ups, dive-bomber push ups, back flys, wide, narrow, and everywhere in between pull ups, front and back hand grips, and some others)). No kidding about it, this was an intense workout. Oh, I forgot to mention, after you are done with all twelve of those exercises, you go back through and repeat the whole thing! I'm not going to lie, I am a little bit tired and sore. lol After the 60 minutes worth of the Chest and Back workout is the Ab Ripper X workout, which adds another 30 minutes. No joke, the name of the ab routine is pretty accurate. Thank goodness I won't have to do it tomorrow, because my abs (or where my abs will be :( ) are really sore!

I did better than I thought with keeping up with the workout (actually quite comparable to my husband), which pleased me. I managed to do 3 push ups, then had to resort to girl push ups for the rest. By the end of work out though, I couldn't do even a girl push up. I would go to lower myself into it and end up on the floor, lol I totally got my ass whipped. I really had a HUGE feeling of accomplishment when the whole thing was done. I feel crazy for it, but I actually am looking forward to getting up early for tomorrow's workout. Tomorrow is plyometrics, which is basically jumps and lunges (and jump lunges ;). I will not be "ripped" in 90 days like promised, because I am NOT already at an ideal weight. The program is meant (ideally) for people who are at a healthy weight and want to get in really good shape and bulk up (for men) or lean out (for women). My idea with this is that I was not getting much as far as muscle building (which burns fat like a bitch) and this workout should melt it off my body faster than the Pilates would.

I am going for the longer leaner look, and hubby is aiming for the bulk up with big muscles. I do really like that by adjusting weights and reps that he can get a workout suited for him and I can get one suited for me at the same time. It is kinda fun to do it together too. When I feel cheesy and awkward, all I have to do is look over at him ;)

One challenge for me is adding more protein and carbs to my diet. On the Alli diet I had a hard time pushing 1500 calories a day and I never got up to the 1800 I was supposed to eat for my weight bracket. I just can't eat that many healthy foods to get the calories (one whopper would do it, but that isn't exactly healthy calories). Tonight instead of one small chicken fajita, I had two (whole wheat wrap, low fat sour cream, and salsa helped make it pretty low in fat).

The food has always been a big deal for me. I get addicted to fast food, Italian food, Mexican food, and ice cream of course ;) If I can get through a few weeks of no fast food, then it seems like I stop craving it so much. When I had been on my good run and lost the 35 lbs before, I had french fries towards the end of it, and almost threw up. The amount of salt that was on the fries tasted more like I put a handful of salt in my mouth. The sweet things are what I have the most trouble resisting. I finally decided that fruit wasn't cutting it for me, and when I want something sweet now I just have a serving of fat free frozen yogurt. I need to get away from the pop (soda in other parts of the US). I was able to at least switch from regular to diet. I don't like the idea of artificial sweeteners, but at least now I don't notice the aftertaste so much. I try to drink lots of water and some iced teas. The crystal light teas and the Lipton teas that are single serving sizes (the kind that comes in a powder that is portioned for bottled water) have been really great for me. I don't use bottled water though, instead I have a water bottle that I fill out of the fridge dispenser since it's filtered. The bottled water is super convenient, but expensive and not so great for the planet.

I have been taking the Alli pills for two weeks, and during that time I have been eating really healthy. I am pretty much over the cravings for fat and salt. I am feeling confident that this time I will be able to drop more than just 10 pounds. Those 35 pounds that I lost during the first part of the year felt awesome to be rid of. I have 50 lbs to go until I am at my goal of 150 lbs, and I can't imagine how great it will feel to be rid of those 50 lbs.

150 is my "realistic" weight that I set for myself (being 5'8" that was pretty near the middle for healthy weight for a woman with average bone structure (according to Dr. Phil's diet book (which has helped me get past the emotional eating even though I don't use the nutrition plan exactly))). In high school I weighed in at 128. I have grown up since then and have had two children, so I realise that I most likely won't get back down to that. I am planing on getting to a point where I feel so great and am so fit that the scale doesn't matter to me at all anymore.

Holy crap! I did not realize that it was so late! It is no longer Wednesday, as it is past midnight. I gotta go to bed so I can even get up and do my work out.

No longer jobless!

YAY!! Hubby got a phone call this morning, and now he has a job! This was the job selling furniture that he was sure he would get because the interviewer seemed so impressed with him. They had chosen another applicant over hubby though. This morning the guy said that the other applicant didn't work out, and if hubby was still interested in the job. Okay, crappy thing is that this means we have to go clothes shopping for him. This is a tie wearing job, whereas all of his past jobs have been casual office wear. Thank goodness a sport coat isn't required. I just order the SaSi last night, we don't have money for a sport coat now. lol More on that later ;)

Oh, the feeling of security that comes with knowing we may not end up homeless after all :) We don't know when his first day will be yet. After the criminal check comes back then we'll find out I guess. Considering hubby has never been arrested and has only had a couple traffic violations (speeding and a turning into the far lane during at a corner), he's not worried at all.

I am very excited that he got a job finally. Our income has been super pitiful, and although this is a low paying job, it is still twice what he made before. Hubby has decided that what he would like to get into is real estate. He loves to sell, and he likes looking at houses, so he figured the perfect fit would be a Realtor. The plan so far, is that we will pay off all our debt (including the car) we will save up enough money to live on for about 6 months, then he will go through the course and get certified. There are enough real estate agencies in the area he should be able to get on at one of them. The plan is that he wouldn't quit his job (even though he has a thing for doing that :( ) until after he gets hired on someplace.

We worked with two Realtors when we were looking for a house, and honestly they both sucked. The guy that was voted Realtor of the year in the state couldn't even listen to what kind of house we wanted. We told him our price range (according to our pre-approval at the bank) and how many bedrooms and square footage we had to have in a house. We also told him some of our wants. Think he ever showed us a house that was in our price range, or had enough bedrooms? Think he ever even showed us a house HE found for us? Nope. We were doing the digging, we were checking on houses coming onto the market. We missed out on at least five houses that were exactly what we were looking for, just because he wasn't doing his job. Is it too hard really to sit down with people and actually LISTEN to what they say? Anyways, we had other problems with him too, so we moved onto a different realtor (who honestly wasn't much better) and we ended up settling on the place we are in now.

The goal with this house is to update it and then sell it later (hopefully for a profit, even if it's small). We bought this house with a good amount of work needing done. The list is huge, but basically every room in the house needs remodeled, besides the kitchen and we are done with that. Unless of course we come into a lot of money or end up here for a very long time. In which case we would add on to the kitchen at least 5 or 6 feet, which would double the size (see how small our kitchen is?). The windows all need replaced (the house was built in 1949 and is showing it's age), needs new siding, new side walks, new water heater and furnace (were planning on going with Rinnai when we finally do), plus the wiring should be updated. The new windows will include egress in the basement. Not to mention our landscaping is the worst on the block (maybe street even). The people that lived here before us really did not upkeep the house or lot, and it shows. Anyways, I kinda got off track there.

So things are on the up and up. This means that hopefully I'll be able to get some of those toys I've been eyeing. Of course we'll need to pay off the credit debt we've racked up while trying to live off of a pizza delivery salary. There are so many awesome toys that I'm really pinning for. I did get an email saying my order shipped. The purple and the pink SaSi's are out of stock now, leaving the black. I ordered the purple, because it is so freakin' sexy looking! A toy that I really have my eye on is the Mia by LELO. Just something sexy about it, plus I'm thinking it would be uber powerful and so discreet too.

Last night I ordered 4 things. The SaSi in purple, the Celtic by Gear Essentials, the original Rabbit Pearl, and a bottle of Liquid Silk. My husband is really excited about this order. He usually likes looking through the toys and helping me play with them or course, but he usually doesn't get excited BEFORE the order gets here. After we tried a metal cock ring the first time, he decided he loved metal. He has this weird thing were he thinks his cock is too small, so it made him feel really great that he takes a 2 inch cock ring. lol I don't know how many times I've told him that as far as size, he is smack in the middle of average. I don't know about everyone else, but in my reviews I am completely honest about my husband's girth. I think it is important when buying a cock ring to know what size it will fit. Some guys are huge and think they are average. If I bought a stretchy ring that was too lose for a guy that has a 1 3/4 inch girth, how would that fit my man who is 1 1/2 inch? There are a couple other reviews that list their, partner's girth when reviewing cock rings. For the handful that I am talking about, thank you very much. It is very helpful to shoppers.

I think many people are intimidated by metal cock rings. I mean, who hasn't heard a horror story about a man getting one stuck and making a trip to the ER? I have a cousin who tried using a silver napkin holder (a wedding present) on their honeymoon. Guess what? It got stuck and he had to take a trip to the ER in the middle of the night to get it cut off. I do feel that a lot of people are missing out on a really amazing sexual accessory because of these kinds of things happening. All it takes is some careful measuring to determine the correct size. Gear Essentials' website has some useful sizing info. If you go look at it, take a peek at their ball weights. They have one on there that is 36 ounces! Speaking of weight, the Celtic ring I ordered, comes in at a heft 1 pound. I just hope my husband doesn't drop it on his foot and break a toe ;)

I mentioned this in my review of a set of metal O-rings recently, but my husband prefers the feel of metal over stretchy rings. He has an enlarged dorsal vein by the base of his penis, and while it doesn't bother him most of time, thin or too tight of cock rings really irritate it. He found that the metal ring fit well, but it didn't squeeze him like the jelly type ones do, thus not putting the stress of his vein. Plus, I have to admit, the metal just looks better adorning a cock than a stinky little pink bunny :P

I usually don't buy Jelly toys, but I bought the Rabbit Pearl. Dame Demi swears by it's power, so I ordered it. I am a sucker for power, I own a Hitachi after all ;) I will need to stock up on condoms before it comes. A box usually lasts us about two weeks as we only use them for anal sex. I am not sure what to do about the clit attachment though. Should I use a latex glove or a finger cot? I need to stock up on gloves anyways, I may just try using them for awhile. I am little worried it will get in the way of the little fluttery ears, but I don't think I want to soak up any more Phthalates than I did before I knew what they were.

The Liquid Silk ought to be good. I have wanted to try it for awhile now. I have (and love) Maximus, and they are made by the same company. I need more Maximus, as we only have about an inch left in the bottom of the bottle. I use that stuff nearly ever time I have sex. I've found that I prefer it for intercourse of all the lubes I have. I like silicone for genital massage (my hubby likes it for his solo time too, not that he gets much solo time as I am always horny), I use the System Jo H2O Flavored for oral, but otherwise Maximus is the stuff we both love. I really like the look of Liquid Silk. It is milky looking, more like a woman's real lubrication. From the reviews I have read of it, it sounds like it feels and functions like the real thing too.

There is no doubt that I am most excited about the SaSi though :) It is such an awesome looking toy. EdenFantasys says my shipment will get here Friday, but I always get my packages a day before they say I will. Boy, am I looking forward to Thursday! I had seen a video demo of the SaSi about 3-4 weeks ago, and fell in love with it instantly. I don't think I have ordered from a store besides Eden since I discovered it existed, so I put off buying it. There is an awesome awesome product that Tantus sells that Jimbo Jones pointed out to me (thank you so much Jimbo!!), that I really want to order but hadn't got around to it yet. Dame Demi also suggested a bullet to me that I need to get, but haven't placed the order yet.

Hubby did get the computer fixed. He ended up having to buy a new network card, but at least it is fixed now. He still has to grab our files from the old hard drive, but is scanning it for more viruses and spy ware. I would like to be able to play the Sims 2 sometime, but that is really a low priority. My brother loaned me Bioshock, and I still need to work through it. I am not sure how far into the game I am. Just got into the area after the escape pod thing gets destroyed. I had rented it when it came out, but had to return it before I beat it. So it has been a while since I played it, so I don't remember everything that happened.

Just as a quick side note, I am down to size 10 jeans! I started out wearing size 18 and they were pretty tight. So a size 10 feels amazing! My goal is to get down to a size 8, but I am thinking I may get smaller than that even. I was a size 6 when I was 17, but I realize my body has changed since then from the havoc babies do to a woman's body. I have to say that I love the results I get from my Pilate's dvd, even though I feel kinda cheesy doing it. The one woman in the dvd really needs to wear different work out clothes. If I want to see pussy lips, I'll look at porn. I don't want to see that when I'm trying to work out. The only problem with the Pilate's is that I can't get my husband to do it with me, and we are both supposed to be trying to lose weight. I saw an infomercial for a 10 minute workout by Tony Horton (he has the Slim in 6, and the P90X programs). I am thinking that I might be able to get my husband to do those with me. We have all the P90X stuff, but the ceiling fan kinda gets in the way and there isn't any place to put the chin up bar. Plus it takes 60-90 minutes for the workouts, and that is kinda hard to get through every day. I do see his belly doesn't protrude as far now. He looks 5 months pregnant instead of 7 ;) He is under the impression that it bothers me. I think he forgets that he is the same weight that he was when we met. He was skinny for our wedding, though it didn't last due to job change.

I still have 3 pounds until I am back down to 200 lbs. Seems like things go up and down so much, but at least I know I am getting smaller based off of my jean size. When I am under 200 I will be rewarding myself with new bras. I watched a stupid court show late last night while hubby was working on the computer. Anyway the woman listed a $90 bra among possessions lost that she wanted replaced. The judge said that she didn't care if it was a water bra, that there was no way it could cost $90. My thought was that obviously this judge hasn't shopped for bras in a very long time, or if she has then it was at Wal-Mart. I am an odd size though, and have to buy online as I don't live near any stores that sell more unusual sizes. There is a victoria secret here, but honestly their bras don't come in large enough cup sizes for me and the quality isn't what you could get out of a Fraya bra. I shop at FigLeaves online. It is the best site I've found that sells 32 FF (that's UK sizes, the US equivalent is 32 H). See why I am have "busty" in my name. It is a blessing and a curse at the same time. Sure large breasts are nice looking, but damn do they get heavy. I was a 32 DD (US size) before I had children. I used to wear a 32 H (UK size) before I started losing weight. I am hoping that once I reach my goal of 150 lbs that I will have gone down a couple more cup sizes. My husband is horrified that I want to get a reduction and lift after we are done having children. I told him that he isn't the one who has to carry them all day long. Maybe I'll get a tummy tuck while I'm at it...

Trojans...no not the condom, the virus :(

Okay, my reviewing plans were really screwed up Saturday. I'm sure by the title of this post that you've already figured out why. Well here's the story behind it all.

A friend came over Saturday around noon. Hubby worked a closing shift that day, so since he was home we used him for babysitting. My friend and I went to the store and bought picnic stuff (pre-made of course) and we drove to a near by trail and went for a walk. After our picnic we walked back to the car and drove back to my house. While we were gone, my husband (who took a year in college for computer tech classes) had downloaded a virus filled program onto our computer. He knows about computers, so should be able to fix it right? Well he didn't have enough time before work to get it done.

While he was at work I mess with it some. The deal is that the viruses were causing explorer to crash. Not the internet browser, but Windows Explorer, the program that allows you to do anything on your computer (without it all you would see is a blue screen, I know, I've seen it :( ). Anyways, do you have any idea how frustrating it is to try and race through the start menu to the anti-virus software before the menus crash and refresh? I gotta say 5 seconds isn't enough time to dig through menus. I tried booting in safe mode, and the problem still persisted. Anyways I finally was able to get to AVG (yes we're cheap and use a free anti-virus) although I don't know how I got to it in time. I loaded it, updated, then switched the modem off so nothing would be able to be reported back out and nothing new could come in. I found out that the screen saver would freeze the computer up and cause the "blue screen of death," so I was stuck in front of the computer wiggling the mouse every 5 minutes. It wouldn't have been so bad that the stupid scan took over an hour and a half.


When the scan was finished, I must say, I was pretty horrified to see what had been on the computer. There were 5 Trojan viruses! Plus the downloader of course. So since that was done, I ran Ad Aware. It came back with over 20 spyware, plus 2 more Trojans! This didn't fix the problem, but the computer did run faster between refreshes. I looked, and alas our restore points had been wiped :( When my husband got home from work he was able to download a different anti-virus on his laptop and use it to scan the desktop. It picked up 15 more viruses!

I was so pissed that he had downloaded a program off the internet like that. It was a questionable site, for a pirated program. Being computer savvy, he should have known better! Besides which, our hard drive only has 80 gig, and we didn't have the space! Piracy issues aside, he screwed up our computer! Anyways, he ended up buying a new hard drive and XP, and has been trying to install new. We don't have the cash for an all new computer or that's what we would do. My hubby built the desktop over 4 years ago, so it is getting really sluggish. It was a beast back then, but now it's lucky if it can even purr. Anyways, he has promised not to download anymore pirated stuff.

I guess at least we will have more space once this is done. The drive he put in is 500 gig, and after a total wipe we plan to use the old 80 gig for storage (maybe the Sims 2). Anyways, I am typing this on his laptop as he doesn't have the PC fixed yet. The OS is loaded, he is just having trouble with the network card. He needs the drivers, but can't get to the internet to do it with the pc. When he tries to transfer files for some reason they won't go. He needs to find someway to get the drivers for the card to work so he can get to the internet and do windows update. What a long drawn out, craptastic ordeal.

In the mean-time, I am stuck using this broken old piece of crap laptop. It was built for power, so it runs hot. Has a regular processor not a laptop processor, and it gets freakin' hot. Also the screen is busted so I have to use our pc monitor. I really hate laptop keyboards. This holds nothin' to the logitech wireless set that I am used to.

I did finally get my review for the LAYAspot up today. I really hated typing it up on this keyboard. Sorry everyone if there are mistakes and such. I went back over it, and corrected a lot of words that had gotten run together thanks to me having issues with the stupid space bar. I had wanted a laptop, but I'm thinking I don't really want one anymore. lol Anyways, I'm not sure how many reviews I'll be doing while the computer in is a funk.

Off topic, Eden added the SaSi! Seriously, I was under the impression it was a BabeLand exclusive...maybe it was a timed exclusive? Anyways, I want one. I really really want one. I don't particularly enjoy finger massage, but that's because my fingers get tired fast and I don't seem to be able to keep a very good rhythm. I think the SaSi would solve that problem. Plus it just looks freakin' awesome!!! Anyways, my hands are cramping from this keyboard. Hopefully I'll post again once the computer is fixed.

The Alli diet pill

Yes, I am on the Alli diet pill. Does it work? I don't know honestly. Today is my 9th day so far, and I've lost 5 lbs (most likely all water weight). I don't need a diet pill to lose weight, so why did I buy it? My husband has this thing for sabotaging my weight loss efforts. When he gets in a funk, he buys fast food, then puts it in my face until I give in. I have lost the same damn 10 pounds at least 6 times during the past year. I am sooooo frickin' tired of it. These pills block 1/4 of the fat you eat, and it comes out the other end (eww). So, I know that if I cave and eat a high fat meal, I will be shitting oil uncontrollably into my pants. Needless to say, I haven't slipped up yet! I have went a step further and convinced my husband to take the pills with me. Remember me saying that he works delivering Pizza? Ha ha ha! After a day of fast food and pizza, he has really backed off of the junk ;) When he doesn't bring it home, I can't eat it, and we are all happier for it.

We have actually been doing really good on our diet. I haven't joined the online support group, not sure why besides I've been too lazy. I stay pretty involved with the Eden community and I try to blog on here occasionally, so I don't think I would probably have much time for another support group. For my support I just ask my husband periodically if he can tell I'm losing any weight. It usually ends with us going to the bedroom for an hour, after which I feel incredibly sexy. I don't bother asking extended family, because if I looked like a skeleton they wouldn't say anything. I don't get why that is, but my family doesn't handle compliments very well, giving or receiving.

It makes me feel nice when my oldest daughter tells me I'm pretty. She's only 3 1/2, but has more manners and kindness than most adults I've met. Other people don't tell me every little detail either. "Pretty hair, mommy. Wow mommy, pretty shirt. Pretty eyes, mommy. Pretty, big boobs mommy." lol Just a word of caution, do be careful what you say in front of children. I referred to my breasts as "boobs" once in front of her, and now she always calls them that. When we have potty time, she points out to me that she has "baby boobs" and I have "big mommy boobs." Needless to say, I am more careful about what comes out of my mouth in front of her.

This is off-topic, but I wanted to say that my Smart Balls were shipped today! Yay! I ordered them during the first part of June, and they have been sold out the entire time. I want the pink ones (to match my pink LAYAspot ;) ) and it was the only color to come in stock! I placed my order as soon as I received the alert saying they were back in stock (I do really love the alerts EdenFantasys has added to the site. Thank you Eden!). I got an email around noon saying that they had shipped. I am amazed at how fast their warehouse and shipping crew are. I am so excited to get my balls (he he, I love saying that!).

Still off-topic, but my Maximus is almost gone! I have to make another order soon, but I wish my husband would land another job before I spend any money. Our money reserve is running quite low, and I don't want to drain it. As far as the job hunting goes, he has had several promising jobs that he has applied for. He hasn't had an interview in a while though. Lots and lots of hours delivering pizza, and the tips have been good thankfully.

I think that is about all I have to say for now. Hopefully at some point I will get into a grove of blogging regularly and get a pattern down.

5 years of marriage...already?

Tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow will be 5 years. 5 years ago I was sitting at my sister's house trying to calm my nerves. Why was I so nervous that day? It all seems like "old hat" now. We are broke now, but we were even more broke back then. We had no honeymoon...seriously, I am not kidding. We had NO freakin' honeymoon! He took a week off from work and we kinda just chilled at our apartment. So, we promised each other that some day we would save up money and treat ourselves to a great vacation to make up for that dismal period after our marriage that is so great for people who can afford it.

Don't assume that tomorrow will be our dream honeymoon...it won't be. We are staying at a freakin' hotel over night. Granted the room costs more than our wedding did, but stop and consider that our wedding cost us about $100. lol yes it was as cheap as cheap could be. I bought my dress at Target for Pete's sake. We paid for the license and the JP, our families pitched in and provided the flowers and the reception (and the location which was the backyard of my sister's place). Our wedding was nice, small and private, but nice.

Tomorrow is mostly going to be about quiet and peacefulness without the children. I can't forget to mention the steamy hot jacuzzi sex! I have an odd feeling that after tomorrow is over, we will start saving up for a hot tub. Ha, my husband has really been looking forward to this. I have been looking forward to it also, just not "crazy" looking forward to it. He is the one that upgraded from a regular Jacuzzi King, to the Jacuzzi King lovers suite. I am not sure what the difference is yet besides a bigger tub.

It should be fun at least. I am looking forward to getting some time away from the girls. I love them, but it is good to get some "grown-up" time too. It is late, so I think I'll end this. Goodnight ;)

Jobless and scared to death.

Okay, so maybe my husband isn't "jobless" but his part-time job isn't going to cut it for us. It was Monday that he quit his last job (I am so glad to be rid of that place) and he has had 2 interviews already. One went okay, and the other one sounds like a sure thing. If one can truly count on anything being a sure thing, jobs don't seem to be one of them. Both of those two interviews were today, and the first one was a "we'll call you back for a second interview" and the other one was a "I'll let you know next Tuesday, then we'll start training." I am hopeful, but I refuse to let myself get into it anymore than that. I have gotten my hopes up in the past only to be crushed and upset (house hunting anybody?).

I have to say that having my husband home a couple days has been great. It had been at least a couple years since we had got "bedroom" time during the middle of the day. We got to have a picnic with the girls, which even though it was in our own yard and contained way too much screaming about ants and little bugs, we had fun. He fixed the car during that time too, which I must say it is great to be able to use the driver's window again.

These jobs are promising. We have been sitting at a very crappy $27k a year income for the past couple years (before that it was so bad, I have no idea how we lived). All of the jobs he's been applying for offer $40k-$50K salaries for first year. That's not much to a lot of people, but it's a heck of a lot better than what we are trying to live on now.

I think I am about done writing...have been writing a lot today and my hands are getting tired. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight. I haven't done that in awhile.